Since my diagnosis date, I only recall a handful of occasions when I’ve actually addressed my thoughts about having diabetes. I’ve allowed my anger to surface when an uncomfortable situation personally or professionally reared it’s head. I knew it was 100% this damn disease – BUT I never shared my inner thoughts and consumed myself with anxiety and hate. I’ve always been amazed that my physicians could break down the chemistry of my very being (carb ratios, correction factor, etc), but my mental state was never even brought up. No one ever told me it was okay to be angry!
As an adult, I choose to address the dark rooted fears and feelings of utter universal defeat. I had allowed the negative thoughts and energy to fester, effecting every part of my life. One day when I have the courage, I’ll write about the moments that broke me and allowed me cry in the dark – wondering… WHY ME? The Diabetes Daily Grind has fueled my desire to address my feelings. I hope our stories will help you reach a new level of self acceptance.
When the negative thoughts try to creep in, I do my best to face them by practicing the following:
- I do some type of physical activity (long walk, swimming, jogging or attempting yoga).
- I allow my mind to open and address the feelings.
- I thank the Universe for allowing me to have the feelings.
- I recognize that I am in control of my thoughts.
- I release the anger.
- I turn the negative thoughts into positive affirmations. This can be really tough, but it can be done.
With all that being said, sometimes a good, long, ugly cry with a large glass of vino is what I need. Do whatever it takes to prevent the negative emotions to live rent free in your head and your mind, your body and your soul will thank you.